Giving Up The Weed

2007-10-21T14:25:42+02:00

Hi my name is Kelly, I am 19 years old and an ex drug user.
This blog page is mainly about me and how i started and gave up the weed.
A friend of mine advise me to do this for others who wants to quit the drugs can see just how easy it really is.

Ok, so here it goes....
When I was 13, my Great Grandad passed away, and I took it very hard, after his funeral I couldn't sleep, so me being weak, I asked a friend for help and he advise me on a drug called Weed! So, I had a puff, and more... It really helped my nerves and I was relaxed and slept easier. I smoked over 5 splifs a night, i was high as a bird.

In 2005, a year of hell... My Ant Pauline passed away, now that did hit me bad, her funeral was lovely... the bad thing was, I was pregnant but did'nt know till a month later!
Two weeks after Ant Pauline had died, my mate Barry died which was upsetting as knew him for 2 years.
A month later, I was raped from a 26 year old Weymouth guy, I was pregnant at the time.
I gave the weed a break until I had my baby girl in November, then sadly I went back on it because I suffered from Depression.
My best mate from College, Steph Shaw got knocked down and killed 2 weeks after my daughter was born, she did'nt get the chance to meet her I still find it hard to believe that she's really gone. The day of Steph's funeral, my Nan had colapsed and suffered a Brain Tumor and was rushed 2 hospital so I did'nt go to Steph's funeral.
My Nan was in Tensive Care Unit for a few months and nearly died!

In 2006... My Nan woke up and came out of Tensive Care and was told she suffered from a Brain tumor and a Stroke and was lucky to be alive but has got Breast Cancer She came home in March and was happy as a bird, it was hard for my Grandad and the rest of the family as my Nan isnt the same as she was before she became ill... The doctors gave her tablets to clear her Breast Cancer and to be honest... it's clearing up

After all that... I was really hooked on weed as it was my only best friend!
I moved in with my ex boyfriend who beaten me up a few times, so i finished with him. I was alone when my daughter was in bed so I just smoked 9 or more spliffs... My parents were concerned for me and my kid... I wanted to give the weed up for my kid aswell, but I couldn't.
I used to spend cash on weed and booze... left my house in a mess... dressed myself and daughter in rags.
In the end... I became messed up, I was in dept!

I turned my self in to the Social Services for my daughter's sake... and yes, just as i imagined... they threated to take her off of me if I don't sort my self out.
So... I thought, shit, I can't lose my baby... she needs me! So I moved back home with my parents and they helped me.
I came off the weed for abit... went back to college... went back on the weed and got caught with a spliff at college, I got suspended for two weeks. When I went back to college, I seeked cancelling help... alot that did... NOT!!

My Mum told my Great Nan who lives in Bishops lydeard, what was happening... and she made me promised I'd throw the weed away and not to have anymore for my daughter's sake aswell as mine.... and do you know what... I listened to her... I threw it away...and gave up!

Today... I got a new clean place... healthy daughter and a wonderful boyfriend and nomore Social Services!

Without the help from my Great Nan, Mum and Dad, I would'nt have what I got today!

So all you people who is on the weed... it's not hard to give up...When you give up, your life changes, it gets better!

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